fairytale lies

Fairytale liesIs this life my destiny?The way I was born or the things I have seen?Maybe this life is not for me.Neither here nor there I’m in between.Somehow this life keeps scorning me,Knocking me down onto my knees.Is life itself the enemy?Or the people who’ve always been around me?How loud do I have to scream,To wake me up from this nightmare dream?Maybe, I have got it all wrong.Do I just suffer because I am strong.My only question is, “How long?”How long will my agony go on?Will healing start or pain prolong?Maybe its just a voice for a sad, sad song?The kind that makes ones heart long,For happier days, and flutter by’s,And every other fairytale lie.I want it so bad I wish I could cry.Will I even be happy after I die?